Adakah sikap aku semakin annoying? Atau dari dulu memang aku macam tu? Huhu...
Minggu ni ada 6 orang cakap aku mengade-ngade. Eeee....tak cool nya jadik mengade. Tapi kenapa diorang kata aku mengade. Out of 6 people tuh, 3 of them cakap aku sangat mengade-ngade. Dan 3 orang tuh pulak memang orang yang rapat sesangat ngan aku.
Huhu..ape salah aku weh. Kenapa diorang cakap aku mengade. Bukan ape la kan, orang mengade nih selalunya orang kurang kasih sayang. Attention seeker lagi drama queen. Eee...cam aku je tu.. Huk huk huk..
Ha tuh la...cakap lagi. Lama-lama kang aku jadik mengade-ngade bebetul kang. Baru diorang tau kan...mau diorang hidup dalam misery. Eheh. Takpelah, mulai ari ni aku nak kontrol-kontrol lah. Tak sanggup orang cakap aku mengade. It's soooooo not me. Huh.
Jap, ngade-ngade tuh ape sebenarnye ek?
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Sengal Of The Day
Di satu hari yang suram lagi membosankan.
* Tutt tutt...tutt tutt...
Sana : Helo
Sini : Helo...u..
Sana : Ha..u, i'm having a meeting ni..
Sini : Kejap la..u..i ada masalah ni
Sana : Bie, I'll call u later k
* Tutttttt.....
++++++++++++++
* Tutt tutt...tutt tutt....
Sana : U, i meeting la..
Sini : Kejap la..i ada masalah ni..u belum meeting kan? Bising je..
Sana : I kat restaurant. Meeting ngan producer (dengan nada berbisik tapi keras)
Sini : Oo..sori..sori..
Sana : So what's your problem? Cepat cepat..
Sini : U, i tengah tgk dvd cite XXXXXXX ni ha..tetibe dia tersekat-sekat pulak...&*$@ betul laaaa...
Sana : Then
Sini : Itu la..i geram la nih..
Sana : Itu je?? Itu je masalah u? (Suara bengang)
Sini : Nanti tolong tukar eh kat kedai tu
Sana : ................. (Super bengang)
*Tuttttt.......
Moral of the story : Jangan beli dvd pirate kalau anda seorang yang manja dan mengade tak bertempat. Huhuhuh...
* Tutt tutt...tutt tutt...
Sana : Helo
Sini : Helo...u..
Sana : Ha..u, i'm having a meeting ni..
Sini : Kejap la..u..i ada masalah ni
Sana : Bie, I'll call u later k
* Tutttttt.....
++++++++++++++
* Tutt tutt...tutt tutt....
Sana : U, i meeting la..
Sini : Kejap la..i ada masalah ni..u belum meeting kan? Bising je..
Sana : I kat restaurant. Meeting ngan producer (dengan nada berbisik tapi keras)
Sini : Oo..sori..sori..
Sana : So what's your problem? Cepat cepat..
Sini : U, i tengah tgk dvd cite XXXXXXX ni ha..tetibe dia tersekat-sekat pulak...&*$@ betul laaaa...
Sana : Then
Sini : Itu la..i geram la nih..
Sana : Itu je?? Itu je masalah u? (Suara bengang)
Sini : Nanti tolong tukar eh kat kedai tu
Sana : ................. (Super bengang)
*Tuttttt.......
Moral of the story : Jangan beli dvd pirate kalau anda seorang yang manja dan mengade tak bertempat. Huhuhuh...
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
The Power of Critism?
Sejauh mana sebuah kritikan mempengaruhi hasil kerja anda. Atau dengan kata lain, adakah anda memerlukan kritikan to make everything u do jadi better.
Some people would say yes. And sebahagian lagi akan say no, i-believe-in-what-i-do OR i-know-what-i'm-doing kind of thing. I think aku dalam kategori yang akan say no. Heh..yup..aku tak rela dikritik.
But the problem is, aku suka mengkritik. Bukan mengkritik semua orang, but untuk certain people yang aku care, yang aku rasa rapat or close with and orang yang buat something yang berkait dengan hidup aku.
Aku malas nak kritik sebenarnya since aku pun tak suka orang kritik hasil kerja aku. Okey, aku beri kelonggaran kepada orang yang lebih master untuk mengkritik, but not for ordinary people. I hate it when orang yang know nothing about what i do and suddenly banyak komen pulak. Annoying. I will easily irritated with these kind of people.
So, am i a master for some people since aku jenis yang suka mengkritik orang? Nah. A big NO NO there. Master kebendenya la pulak kan. But i think i have extra quality yang dipanggil sense (katanya). Okey, artistic sense la kot sebab aku suka kritik hasil kerja seni orang je selalunya. Kesian these people yang selalu jadi mangsa kritik aku yang tak bertauliah nih.
But what surprised me more, sometimes they rely on me to make their hasil kerja to be better. Oh my. Yeah..i don't simply comment hasil kerja orang u see...but aku diminta, been requested to comment/critic. So basically not my fault lah kan. I dunno...sebab dah terbiasa, ianya dah jadi habit. And now, walau tanpa diminta aku akan pot pet pot pet kalau ada yang tak kena. Especially dengan hasil kerja Mr Shrek.
The more i care, the more aku akan masuk campur. I have this kind of perasaan di mana aku tak boleh dengar orang lain kutuk/kritik hasil kerja orang yang rapat dengan aku. So i take the responsibility. Biar aku komen/kritik dulu, then barulah the others tu. Kalau the others tu tak suka, aku rasa lebih puas hati and i'm gonna take the blame (secara tak langsung nya lah...tapi orang yang terpaksa dengar kritik tuh dah tentu la si empunya hasil kerja).
Aku tak tahu sikap aku ni baik atau tidak. But i hope aku menyumbang sesuatu untuk kebaikan orang yang rapat dengan aku. Aku tak rasa aku pandai pun, i'm just sharing some ideas yang aku tahu. Cuma cara aku kedengaran lebih kasar sikit lah kot. Coz aku tak terus kasik idea, but aku akan persoalkan dulu kenapa dia (si empunya hasil kerja) buat macam tu. It's just my nature lah...aku akan kedengaran seperti annoying gila but then towards the end mereka akan dapat juga idea aku.
Okey, let me kasi contoh. Macam hari ni. Aku melihat hasil camerawork and editing by Mr Shrek and the gang. Oh my..that was sooo poor. I don't even like it. In fact i didn't watch it sampai habis pun. And terus aku bla bla bla...and Mr Shrek was like terhangguk-hangguk cuba nak serap komen yang aku beri. The camerawork was so plain. Tak ada seni langsung. BORING... *sigh
Am i too demanding? Atau lebih dasat lagi, siapa aku nak komen-komen macam tu kan? But yeah, i might be not involved in their business, but it doesn't mean aku tak ada taste yeah. And they believe in my taste. Well, i'm so glad to know that. But still, i felt pretty bad setiap kali lepas beri komen. Sebab most of the time aku rasa macam aku tak layak nak kasi komen macam tu. Well, walau apa pun it's up to them nak amik kira komen aku atau tidak.Yang penting aku luahkan apa yang aku rasa. I know kadang-kadang bila dah buat, memang agak sukar nak amend sesuatu hasil kerja tu. Dan aku faham semua tuh.
I used to ask them, no i asked Mr Shrek " Do u think i'm in the right position to critic your work?" And he just replied me with this " Yeah, i think u're". Well...i just take it as a compliment lah kan. Dan lebih hebat, u ols mesti pernah dengar kan, di sebalik seorang lelaki yang hebat, there is a woman. Kiranya woman tuh jadik backbone. At least that is what i'm trying to do walaupun i know bukan mudah nak jadi macam tu.
I might not know as much as they do. But i might have what they do not have. So the collaboration antara kami semua mungkin menghasilkan sesuatu yang lebih baik. Who knows. Namun apa yang lebih penting, i really hope hasil kritikan aku bring them some good. So far, i'm still a reliable person untuk beri komen terawal. Not bad eyh? Heh.. ;)
Some people would say yes. And sebahagian lagi akan say no, i-believe-in-what-i-do OR i-know-what-i'm-doing kind of thing. I think aku dalam kategori yang akan say no. Heh..yup..aku tak rela dikritik.
But the problem is, aku suka mengkritik. Bukan mengkritik semua orang, but untuk certain people yang aku care, yang aku rasa rapat or close with and orang yang buat something yang berkait dengan hidup aku.
Aku malas nak kritik sebenarnya since aku pun tak suka orang kritik hasil kerja aku. Okey, aku beri kelonggaran kepada orang yang lebih master untuk mengkritik, but not for ordinary people. I hate it when orang yang know nothing about what i do and suddenly banyak komen pulak. Annoying. I will easily irritated with these kind of people.
So, am i a master for some people since aku jenis yang suka mengkritik orang? Nah. A big NO NO there. Master kebendenya la pulak kan. But i think i have extra quality yang dipanggil sense (katanya). Okey, artistic sense la kot sebab aku suka kritik hasil kerja seni orang je selalunya. Kesian these people yang selalu jadi mangsa kritik aku yang tak bertauliah nih.
But what surprised me more, sometimes they rely on me to make their hasil kerja to be better. Oh my. Yeah..i don't simply comment hasil kerja orang u see...but aku diminta, been requested to comment/critic. So basically not my fault lah kan. I dunno...sebab dah terbiasa, ianya dah jadi habit. And now, walau tanpa diminta aku akan pot pet pot pet kalau ada yang tak kena. Especially dengan hasil kerja Mr Shrek.
The more i care, the more aku akan masuk campur. I have this kind of perasaan di mana aku tak boleh dengar orang lain kutuk/kritik hasil kerja orang yang rapat dengan aku. So i take the responsibility. Biar aku komen/kritik dulu, then barulah the others tu. Kalau the others tu tak suka, aku rasa lebih puas hati and i'm gonna take the blame (secara tak langsung nya lah...tapi orang yang terpaksa dengar kritik tuh dah tentu la si empunya hasil kerja).
Aku tak tahu sikap aku ni baik atau tidak. But i hope aku menyumbang sesuatu untuk kebaikan orang yang rapat dengan aku. Aku tak rasa aku pandai pun, i'm just sharing some ideas yang aku tahu. Cuma cara aku kedengaran lebih kasar sikit lah kot. Coz aku tak terus kasik idea, but aku akan persoalkan dulu kenapa dia (si empunya hasil kerja) buat macam tu. It's just my nature lah...aku akan kedengaran seperti annoying gila but then towards the end mereka akan dapat juga idea aku.
Okey, let me kasi contoh. Macam hari ni. Aku melihat hasil camerawork and editing by Mr Shrek and the gang. Oh my..that was sooo poor. I don't even like it. In fact i didn't watch it sampai habis pun. And terus aku bla bla bla...and Mr Shrek was like terhangguk-hangguk cuba nak serap komen yang aku beri. The camerawork was so plain. Tak ada seni langsung. BORING... *sigh
Am i too demanding? Atau lebih dasat lagi, siapa aku nak komen-komen macam tu kan? But yeah, i might be not involved in their business, but it doesn't mean aku tak ada taste yeah. And they believe in my taste. Well, i'm so glad to know that. But still, i felt pretty bad setiap kali lepas beri komen. Sebab most of the time aku rasa macam aku tak layak nak kasi komen macam tu. Well, walau apa pun it's up to them nak amik kira komen aku atau tidak.Yang penting aku luahkan apa yang aku rasa. I know kadang-kadang bila dah buat, memang agak sukar nak amend sesuatu hasil kerja tu. Dan aku faham semua tuh.
I used to ask them, no i asked Mr Shrek " Do u think i'm in the right position to critic your work?" And he just replied me with this " Yeah, i think u're". Well...i just take it as a compliment lah kan. Dan lebih hebat, u ols mesti pernah dengar kan, di sebalik seorang lelaki yang hebat, there is a woman. Kiranya woman tuh jadik backbone. At least that is what i'm trying to do walaupun i know bukan mudah nak jadi macam tu.
I might not know as much as they do. But i might have what they do not have. So the collaboration antara kami semua mungkin menghasilkan sesuatu yang lebih baik. Who knows. Namun apa yang lebih penting, i really hope hasil kritikan aku bring them some good. So far, i'm still a reliable person untuk beri komen terawal. Not bad eyh? Heh.. ;)
It's Over
Aku bermimpi sesuatu last night...or should i put as someone instead. Yeah, something and someone.
It's strange enough. Aku rasa i don't even think about him lately. But i know kadang-kadang aku rasa macam something is missing. Malangnya i don't know what is missing. Or who am i missing. Arghh...missing. It could be kehilangan atau merindui. Whatever.
The dream was weird. Ntah, for me bukan dream tu yang weird. It's the feeling yang weird sebenarnya. In my dream tu, that someone gave me a letter. Dalamnya tertulis yang everything is over. So whatever perasaan yang tersisa mestilah dibuang atau dipendamkan saja. There is no way to turn back. And yang paling strange was, cara penyampaian surat tu memang sound like him!
Weird. Sebab aku memang dah sedia maklum perkara tu. Why should aku menaruh apa-apa harapan lagi sedangkan i'm very happy with my life now. For one second aku anggap the dream was just a crap. But when i think about it further, i noticed something strange. Yeah, i admit, kadang-kadang aku memang ada terfikir about him. No..not about him, but what had happened between us.
So i guess i shall not wonder about it anymore. Dah memang crystal clear everything is over. It's over long time ago. So i took the dream as a big hint. Aku bukan jenis yang supersticious sangat la nak percaya mimpi-mimpi ni whatsoever. But since aku mencari-cari jawapan kepada beberapa persoalan selama ini, so i think i should take it as a message.
Well, mungkin juga ini satu tanda yang menunjukkan bahawa i'm healed completely. Who knows. Whatever it is, i'm happy. I'm happy kerana for the first time aku dapat jawapan yang macam tu. Walaupun hanya dalam mimpi, and it could be mainan tidur, but yeah...i think itu sudah cukup.
Ianya macam hutang u know. Walaupun aku rasa none of us akan ungkit pasal perkara tu lagi, tapi aku sendiri tahu ianya belum selesai. And now aku rasa sangat lega. In fact i woke up smiling this morning. It's over...yeah it's over... :)
It's strange enough. Aku rasa i don't even think about him lately. But i know kadang-kadang aku rasa macam something is missing. Malangnya i don't know what is missing. Or who am i missing. Arghh...missing. It could be kehilangan atau merindui. Whatever.
The dream was weird. Ntah, for me bukan dream tu yang weird. It's the feeling yang weird sebenarnya. In my dream tu, that someone gave me a letter. Dalamnya tertulis yang everything is over. So whatever perasaan yang tersisa mestilah dibuang atau dipendamkan saja. There is no way to turn back. And yang paling strange was, cara penyampaian surat tu memang sound like him!
Weird. Sebab aku memang dah sedia maklum perkara tu. Why should aku menaruh apa-apa harapan lagi sedangkan i'm very happy with my life now. For one second aku anggap the dream was just a crap. But when i think about it further, i noticed something strange. Yeah, i admit, kadang-kadang aku memang ada terfikir about him. No..not about him, but what had happened between us.
So i guess i shall not wonder about it anymore. Dah memang crystal clear everything is over. It's over long time ago. So i took the dream as a big hint. Aku bukan jenis yang supersticious sangat la nak percaya mimpi-mimpi ni whatsoever. But since aku mencari-cari jawapan kepada beberapa persoalan selama ini, so i think i should take it as a message.
Well, mungkin juga ini satu tanda yang menunjukkan bahawa i'm healed completely. Who knows. Whatever it is, i'm happy. I'm happy kerana for the first time aku dapat jawapan yang macam tu. Walaupun hanya dalam mimpi, and it could be mainan tidur, but yeah...i think itu sudah cukup.
Ianya macam hutang u know. Walaupun aku rasa none of us akan ungkit pasal perkara tu lagi, tapi aku sendiri tahu ianya belum selesai. And now aku rasa sangat lega. In fact i woke up smiling this morning. It's over...yeah it's over... :)
The Idle Moment
Hujan. So aku rasa sejuk today.
Keadaan diri not so good. Gusi macam bengkak pulak when i woke up this morning. Boleh jadi sebab semalam punya hal. Aku makan sotong bakar lalu terselit kat celah gigi geraham and then aku cungkil pakai pencungkil gigi. Mesti dah terkena jangkitan. Urghh...rasa macam tebal pulak kat pipi sebelah kiri nih.
Other than that, today i feel better. I mean i was damn bored lately. Tak ada mood nak bersembang, tak ada mood nak berposting kat forum dan tak ada mood nak update blog. Everyday aku hanya tonton movie, dengar lagu and jawab segala kuiz yang ada dekat facebook. Heh..
Kenape ek jadi macam tu. Tapi aku rasa perkara tu berlaku kat everyone. Mesti dalam satu-satu masa dalam setahun, kita akan rasa diri kita idle jek. Not moving forward and tak pergi kebelakang juga. It's just idle. Statik. A bit blur dan then kita rasa bored. Tak ada mood to do anything. Quiet.
Bila berlaku perkara macam ni, i just let it be. Aku tak ambil jalan keluar pun. Dalam erti kata lain, i just feel the silent and idle moment tu. I think there is no use to whine about it. I take it as a therapy for our brain. Our brain need to rest now and then. When it's time to kick again, we kick it. That's all.
So for the time being, i'm gonna let myself to feel it. Feel...feel it until i don't feel it anymore.
Keadaan diri not so good. Gusi macam bengkak pulak when i woke up this morning. Boleh jadi sebab semalam punya hal. Aku makan sotong bakar lalu terselit kat celah gigi geraham and then aku cungkil pakai pencungkil gigi. Mesti dah terkena jangkitan. Urghh...rasa macam tebal pulak kat pipi sebelah kiri nih.
Other than that, today i feel better. I mean i was damn bored lately. Tak ada mood nak bersembang, tak ada mood nak berposting kat forum dan tak ada mood nak update blog. Everyday aku hanya tonton movie, dengar lagu and jawab segala kuiz yang ada dekat facebook. Heh..
Kenape ek jadi macam tu. Tapi aku rasa perkara tu berlaku kat everyone. Mesti dalam satu-satu masa dalam setahun, kita akan rasa diri kita idle jek. Not moving forward and tak pergi kebelakang juga. It's just idle. Statik. A bit blur dan then kita rasa bored. Tak ada mood to do anything. Quiet.
Bila berlaku perkara macam ni, i just let it be. Aku tak ambil jalan keluar pun. Dalam erti kata lain, i just feel the silent and idle moment tu. I think there is no use to whine about it. I take it as a therapy for our brain. Our brain need to rest now and then. When it's time to kick again, we kick it. That's all.
So for the time being, i'm gonna let myself to feel it. Feel...feel it until i don't feel it anymore.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Thoughts Of The Day
Think. Think. Think.
Why can't we just say something nice about our companion?
Why don't we do something remarkable for someone we love most?
Why don't we treat people around us nicely?
Why do we say something that we don't even mean it?
Why don't we just be honest to ourselves and people around us?
And lastly, why should we answer the questions above?
Why can't we just say something nice about our companion?
Why don't we do something remarkable for someone we love most?
Why don't we treat people around us nicely?
Why do we say something that we don't even mean it?
Why don't we just be honest to ourselves and people around us?
And lastly, why should we answer the questions above?
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Luahan Perasaan Of The Day
I found a piece of paper, yang rupanya tertera luahan perasaan seorang yang bernama lelaki. OMG, aku gelak macam nak terburai isi perut aku. Hehehe...nak tahu what's the content? Let us see.....
WHY I PREFER THIS TYPE OF HAIR?
"The mop kind of hair is like a shield for all those pressure. Yet it can also hide my tension, I feel more confident of fighting this day-to-day pressure. It covers my brain from any serious damage"
" This shorty hair has no shield. The pressure goes straight to my head skin and damage my brain. I got no confident and always felt terrible"
Haaaa..amacam. Actually aku dah scan lukisan tuh dan edit sikit tulisannya supaya nampak lebih kemas. I just can't believe it. Di sebalik kesudian beliau memotong rambut, rupanya wujud ketidakpuasan hati yang memuncak. Hehehe...OMG..this guy kan, mmg unbelievable tau. Ekekek...siap wrote on a piece of paper tuh kan nak luahkan perasaan punya pasal.
Owh Mr Shrek, i tak tau nak kesian ke atau nak gelak. Walau apapun, this is sweet sesangat tau. U should do it more often. Selain dapat meluahkan semua ketakpuasan hati u, ia mungkin boleh dijadikan sebagai terapi for myself. Sebab apa? Sebab it made me laugh!!! Hahaha....
* I'm sorry darling sebab letak kat sini. But yur luahan perasaan adalah sebahagian dari perkara bermakna dalam hidup I. ;)
WHY I PREFER THIS TYPE OF HAIR?
"The mop kind of hair is like a shield for all those pressure. Yet it can also hide my tension, I feel more confident of fighting this day-to-day pressure. It covers my brain from any serious damage"
" This shorty hair has no shield. The pressure goes straight to my head skin and damage my brain. I got no confident and always felt terrible"
Haaaa..amacam. Actually aku dah scan lukisan tuh dan edit sikit tulisannya supaya nampak lebih kemas. I just can't believe it. Di sebalik kesudian beliau memotong rambut, rupanya wujud ketidakpuasan hati yang memuncak. Hehehe...OMG..this guy kan, mmg unbelievable tau. Ekekek...siap wrote on a piece of paper tuh kan nak luahkan perasaan punya pasal.
Owh Mr Shrek, i tak tau nak kesian ke atau nak gelak. Walau apapun, this is sweet sesangat tau. U should do it more often. Selain dapat meluahkan semua ketakpuasan hati u, ia mungkin boleh dijadikan sebagai terapi for myself. Sebab apa? Sebab it made me laugh!!! Hahaha....
* I'm sorry darling sebab letak kat sini. But yur luahan perasaan adalah sebahagian dari perkara bermakna dalam hidup I. ;)
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